Hi, this is Brian and thank you for reading my book and visiting!

I am working on a performance CD to accompany Beyond Nice which will be completed just as soon as I shake the nerves outta myself.  If you would like to sign up to find out when the audio CD is finally done and how you can get your own copy, please leave me a comment below.  Or if you have any questions, please ask and I will answer!

As an UPDATE, I have recorded some of the tracks.  I need to do some re-recording where I was mambling.  I mean, mumbling.  So if you are interested, please CLICK BELOW to hear a little sample.  (Work in progress...)

To be updated on when the audio CD is released and other artwork I do, just leave a comment.  You can write me also!  brian.moy@gmail.com

And be SURE to check out the goods in the posts below!  I'll be updating this whenever the feeling strikes me.  And I'll try to add some good treats to make it worth coming back to check out!

P.S. In case you couldn't figure it out and were wondering, the subject of the writings in Beyond Nice is about the love I have for my car and combing my hair.  This book also was seven years in the making... yes its TRUE!

Hey, did someone else who has the book show you to this page but you don't have your own copy and you want to know how to get your very own print copy?  (without audio CD)

Or are you interested in getting extra copies to give as gifts to your love, friends, family?

No problem, I would be honored to send you any extra copies you need, and I'm even willing to sign it for free (on request).  The price is $5 each + a flat $2 for postage and handling for how ever many you want.  If you are Portland, local I can meet you at a bar or coffee shop for free.

Just send me an email - brian.moy@gmail.com

If you're interested at all in who I am and what I like, here's some pieces:

My page (with pictures of myself and Mr. Nice!)

Also I keep a personal motivation journal.

So tonight I had a FLASH and then a new project is born!

I was thinking to myself that my dear friends see me as a sweetheart.  Sometimes I get pissy and crude, and I have a very dark side as well that few people see, but I always end up back where I started out at.  So I registered the domain, www.perpetualsweetheart.com  That will be my new building for certain artwork of mine that I have in mind to go there.

Also, somewhat similar to that idea (which actually branched off each other), I came up with the idea for another new booklet. 

In coming up with the list that ended up making the pages of Beyond Nice, there was many writings that I'd done that didn't quite make the cut.  The time period for the Beyond Nice book is pretty lengthy at about seven or eight years of my life (even if I consider it to be more emotionally quiet when compared to the years before that!  And you might be interested to know it's been a work in progress that actually started back in 2003.  I didn't just come with the idea a week ago and tie some stuff together.)  Its not necessarily JUST about picking out the ones that I like or think are the very best, sometimes no matter how much I might like a particular piece, it just doesn't quite fit into subject flow of the project I'm putting together.

One of my favorite things to write about is love, but I tend to be hesitant to string together too much of my heavy stuff together as I hate looking back and seeing something as totally self-indulgent and conceited.  There's way too much pseudo-romantic crap that makes me want to kick somebody in the critch.  I mean, the crotch.

So the idea for my new book is the classic image of the underdog.  Someone who works hard all their life, gives everything their best shot but because of lack of ability or circumnstance, they never became even a contender.  That is a human condition I can FULLY relate with believe me!  I've put everything I've ever had to overcome my lack of abilities all thru growing up.  I tend to be down ugly awful at starting, but eventually I've been an excellent AWESOME finisher.

All that feeling swirling within myself, I came up with Sentimental Favorite, the title of a new project.  Its going to be lighter in content compared to Beyond Nice, but much more focused in intensity.  The releases I have that are more personal to me, I tend to be more private with who I share with.  To me, completing a project is the end in itself and I don't need anyone's money or approval of my artwork to feel satisfaction from it.  All that said, the fact that YOU (yes, YOU reading right now) thought enough to come visit this little page and read what I have to say, means that I know that you are most likely the kind of person I would want reading it.  So, please please do be sure to leave me a comment or send me a message and I will be sure to personally stay in touch and letcha know what I'm doing and what I'm working on.

I've got some really rad stuff I'm working on and I would be genuinely TOUCHED if you stuck around and would consider me as your friend.

I went thru all my old artwork and writings today.  For so many years, I really haven't touched any of my stacks of artwork, so I get a new perspective looking at it again and I think, "wow, this is good, I should do it again".  I'd like to read you a couple here if you don't mind.  The first is from a book that I released for the people that came to my birthday (and also for something I was doing a few days later) back in the year 2000 titled, I Enjoy the Company of You Especially.  Being that it was a special release just for an event, its long out of print... but that piece seemed to especially connect with people so I am thinking of reprinting it.  The poem for that is in reference to the nursery rhyme I wrote (probably from 2000) that is the unnumbered bonus track on the Beyond Nice audio CD.  Someday, I will publish that as a children's book.

The second poem I want to read you was during a very intense day.  If you notice the date, yes... 9/11.  It kind of doesn't really fit in anything I'm planning to do, so here it is on its own. 

Hey there, its Brian! 

I thought I'd read you some stuff from various things I published in 2000 and 2001 that really seemed to speak to me lately.  Hope you like it.

And if you REALLY like them, let me know.  I'm thinking about re-printing them if people would be interested again.

I've finally DONE it!

I have converted my book I did from 2001, Stereo Sound Surrounds Me into its own website.  All the original content is there and I even read it to you!  Back then I heard a lot good things about so I'm guessing its pretty good...  You should check it out.

www.thestereosound.com

Hi there hows it going?

I would like to read for you a couple poems I wrote before 2003 that have been sticking in my head.   Both would end up being put in some collections I completed back then.  Did you know that I do artwork in multiple media? - write, draw, create, print, speak, perform and produce.  If not, its Shirley because we met in 2003 or later.  I really wasn't sharing my artwork too much publicly since about that time, so just about every new friend I made since that time probably had no idea I did artwork.  A stark contrast from everyone who knew me before 2003 as the guy that does the artwork, books and zines.  The passion in my life since 2003 up to last year or so has been cloudy compared to my life prior to that. 

I feel I've recently re-discovered the passion that gives me my fireball ferocity.  For example - Beyond Nice was actually written out in 2003 but I didn't have the heart to release it back then.  When I release something, I'm letting go of it and I have to be strong emotionally to do so, if I'm being honest with myself.  Sixish years in the making - the book went thru several title changes and the set list was edited, axed, and updated even more times than that.  So finally in June I spent some time to finally wrap it up.

The things that have changed for me is my attitude.  I really have been trying with the intent to work on my personal self, my spirit, my heart.  As a seemingly direct result I have been much more productive with the renewed mindset.  Although my attitude doesn't by itself bring results - it won't take out the garbage - it helps to re-light the fire in my passion to get everything I need done.  The passion in my life has been generally absent from my life since 2003.  I speak casually but its kind of a big deal for me to state that in words.  How my mindset does bring about results I feel is my genuine sincerity and consideration kind of attracts the energy I need to get things done - even if the energy isn't from me.

I tend to have a dynamic view of fate.  Faith itself is not enough to get the outcome, rather I feel I create my own results by putting myself out there.  (physically that is)  "If I'm always sincere then I have nothing to fear".  I wrote that.  If I naturally think about and help people with their true desires WITHOUT personal intention (so important), then I notice they typically return in same.  To appreciate people sincerely means I have to care about and understand them.  If I don't genuinely think about people when I give a compliment, then its just self-serving disposable flattery like a waitress for tips.  If I reach out to the world, the world tends to reach back.

To care strongly about people is POWERFUL.  But its not being naiive and innocent... necessarily.  When you care about someone or something, it does make you vulnerable because you are putting yourself out there, which I understand is why many people are so closed off - like I was for the past six years.  Someone or something you TRULY care about has the power to really hurt you - moreso than if you had your defenses up.  And the crucifying pain of that hurt can be too much to bear.  But a cynical life is like death to me.

My release valve had been my artwork.  Its the best friend I never had.  When I shut myself off from doing artwork and writing, it ultimately holds all my pain inside.  My artwork is basically my true love.  Its where I can release my craziness, my sorrows, my grief, my depression, my love, my anger, my wishes.

First is from A Flower Unfolds... released in I think 2002?

Second is from "Close the door on your way out." completed in 2002 but unreleased.

I just wrote a couple more.  More double entendre from myself.  Am I writing about?  Hmm, I guess we'll never know... 

The passion I have roars like a lion.  I'm absolutely ferocious.  Anyways...  I just finished something I think is pretty good and I'm thinking it'll probably fit into my next project - Sentimental Favorite.

There's no date on this, but I'm guessing from 2002.

I just wrote a little something else I think will fit nicely in Sentimental Favorite. 

I'm not sure if anybody has bothered to check out this webpage besides myself.  If you've come before and then come back, you may have noticed I've been updating this regularly.  Just kinda saying... come visit again every so often!!  This is an older one that was sticking in my mind today, and so I had to look it up. 

Just thought I'd put this out there that I am in the need of a photographer to take some modeling shots I am needing for an upcoming book and also an upcoming website I am working on.  Sad to say that I have been needing to recycle many of the old shots I have of myself, but I think the few I have are good shots so I am at least able to make good use of them.  However, I am needing some specific shots and poses for the upcoming projects I am working on that I don't have.  The shots I have of myself are mostly ten years old anyways... luckily I still seem to look as young as I did ten years ago.

If interested, PLEASE do contact me.  brian.moy@gmail.com  I would give you full credit to all shots where they appear and you are welcome to take any extra shots of me to add to your portfolio.  I'm very professional and very photographable.

This isn't a poem, more of a disjointed rant... but whatever... I still titled it for some reason.

I've been home since my business trip to Iowa, which I will say went well as I could have hoped - and that's being completely honest with myself.  Since being home though I feel there has been a definate lag in my motivation.  I think when I set my goals too low, too attainable, I can get too satisfied with myself and become lazy.  I have so much more I want to do, and really I don't consider myself having accomplished any of the major goals I've set for myself this year yet.

As things begin to appear going well, a part of myself has to just naturally prepare myself if things turn out badly - I guess its like a "let down valve".  Not sure if that's a good thing or not, but its what happens to me when things seem to be going too well or too easily. 

So I guess I'm in the need of something to really get my blood flowing, to re-fuel my soul, to energize my hopes.  I've been reading How to Win Friends and Influence People by the Dale Carnegie.  I feel like it was the unwritten blueprint of my life in my early 20's as I did a lot of the techniques mentioned (especially in the first portion of my book) to make connections and friends, and it all worked very well.  Amazing to think, however, that I did all those things because it was natural for my personality and not because I learned about it or read about it.  Now that I'm a tad older, I'm for some reason a bit shy to do some of those same things...  Afraid to look/be innocent/cute/vulnerable?  Yeah.

I'm really in the mood to see a good motivating movie, like Rocky or something along those lines.

I know this that I recently wrote doesn't fit into the setting of this webpage, but a true artist expresses themself honestly however they are feeling.  (and for now, I don't have anywhere else to put this!)  You could say I've had issues with people I've known that are not very good listeners.  People I will vent to, and they give advice like I have a problem for them to solve.  No, no, no...  that's not why I talk to you.  And probably why I won't talk to you so much again.